Thursday, July 6, 2017

yesteryear





it's a hurt breath saying hello to an old summer. 
the bruise on the back of my calf throws me back to seven years ago, in this same old house. the bruises were on my shins then, from running up the stairs with cricket legs slipping and laughing at the pain. our carpet is run down already, feet trampling it more and more year after year (my mom bought a colorful rug in hopes to make our house look better). 

i stood in our laundry room the other day, folding stained white towels (we never manage to keep things perfect). when we were younger, we'd haul the laundry baskets upstairs to our living room and fold it as quickly as we could so we could go run off to spend our day fighting off monsters with our branch-swords. and before that, in the house only us older ones remember, we would ride those baskets down the stairs with squeals bouncing off the walls. 

today, i shook silver hands with yesteryear. i settled down for a minute, and the petals wilted for the last time off of that rose. we say goodbye to old skins, she said (i still keep that letter in the back of my bible). so i take a deep breath, set the memories down in my garden like smooth stones, and take a long look at the sky. 

He is calling me onward. 
the horn has been sounded. 

/x

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27 comments:

  1. Whoa, this was so beautiful. I want to tell you exactly how, probably because I have similar memories, maybe even completely different ones -- yet these words sparked them anyways. Your talent as a writer is brilliant, you practically paint a lifetime in every single syllable.

    Love ya,
    Amelia xxx
    <3

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    1. WOAH. (also whoa makes more sense on how to spell it, but I've always spelled it woah so I'm going to keep on XD). ISN'T IT WEIRD HOW SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BASICALLY THE SAME CHILDHOOD MEMORIES??? it blows my minndd. ahh. Anyway, thanks Amelia girl. <3 a lifetime in every single syllable. that is hilariously wonderful, my goodness. it's all God, baby.
      ALL THE LOVE. xx

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  2. Wow gal. How ya EVEN DO THAT??? your talent is so crazy amazing, keep using it girl. xx

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    1. HOW YA EVEN COME OVER HERE AND MAKE ME LAUGH. u r so rad. oh baby. thank you so much, paige. x

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  3. i don't even know what to say just this is beauty

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    1. kind of funny how that works. HAHAH. loves. x

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    1. GUESS WHAT.
      I LOVE YOU. hAHAAAAA. <3 xx

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  5. 'silver hands.' and that wisp of pink clouds. i love how you capture the tiniest details as the most special things in the world. as details always are.

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    1. ANdrea u r makin me cry. oh my goodness. IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE THE TINIEST DETAILS. i think it's because sometimes i feel like a tiny detail and i'm like, "oh, this thing needs some loving because no one else sees it." lolz. owie. i love youuu. x

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  6. also WHAAAT a Spotify playlist??!! O.O this is gonna be goood

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    1. HAHAHA and then here i am again, amazed by your love. because you messaged me and talked to me all about it and that was really important because no one usually cares that much. whaaaat. thanks for all your sweetness. x

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    2. oh i always care about music. and then when it's you + music it's even more. ;)

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  7. everything you say is beautiful

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    1. ok stop right there because i didn't want to cry today. ur so sweet aahh :') xxx

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  8. How do you make everything so beautiful? You have a way with words unlike anyone I've ever known. Such a gift.

    "we say goodbye to old skins, she said (i still keep that letter in the back of my bible)" < that is just the epitome of beauty.

    you bless me.

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    1. GRACE ANNE, WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO COME OVER HERE AND COMPLIMENT ME SO WONDERFULLY???????? Because ow, that hit me right here *POINTS AT MY HEART* oh man. all glory be to Christ, because He is every wonderful thing that comes out of me. yep.
      thanks x a million. lololz. xxx <3

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    1. HAHAHAH I AM SO GLAD I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU. x

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  10. I don't understand how you make everything sound so beautiful. I'll have to give this Spotify playlist a listen on my way to work tomorrow

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    1. honestly, me either. but it must be Him cuz it's not me, yo. *laughs* OKAY. let me know what you think, if you want. loves loves loves. x

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  11. okay yeah i'm not crying it's just raining in my room, y'know?

    WOW. I feel this so hard though. And your words are poetry. They...speak to the soul. ouch <3 it's beautiful, but sad. I JUST REALLY LOVE THIS. ♥♥

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    1. HAHAHA. rainclouds in a room. those are becoming a problem. we'll need to see to that. x
      i cry. i could ask for nothing more.

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  12. ohmythishurts
    hello
    I'm back here
    and you're lovely
    ok
    .

    Randy Abby
    WAKE ME UP Blog

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    1. SOMEHOW I MISSED THIS COMMENT AND NOW I AM CRYING BUT HELLO MY SWEET FRIEND. i am glad. i have left, though i cannot find the reason why quite yet. been overwhelmed. but enough about me! i am glad to see your face.
      x

      p.s. come back to CO soon pls. all my love.

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