Friday, January 20, 2017


brush brush. 
there we go.
not a fresh start - a couple smudged lines, but better than before.

i stood out in that cold, wet dirt today. the sun was already sleeping behind the mountains, and the sky was already that deep blue that sifts the moonlight as it comes down. a couple stars were out and i thought about goodness.

goodness, goodness, goodness.
the kind that shakes the shadow remnants from your soul, and love that finds those tender bits in your heart.

the Lord is good, yeah? i know it. hey, i believe it. 

i didn't know what that meant before. the Lord is good? yeah. sure. but that was before the fire. that was before the thunderstorms and the running and the broken sobs that shook your old lungs.
goodness isn't always what we see is good.

what does He see, little one?
He sees the finished result.
He sees what the trials produce.

He sees you. and hey, he loves you now. he loves you in all of your youness. and a brave man once said, "God said come as you are, but he didn't say leave as you were."

that means loss of self, yo.
i was scared once. some days i still am. but when you gaze into His eyes, all fear melts away. those doubts have no place to stand in the face of Truth. and Christ. OH. CHRIST. He is with you through that refining fire that feels like it's burning you up so much that you can't even breathe.
He is with you on those quiet mornings when it feels like you can't pray.
He is with you.

the Lord is good. and some days that means He's gonna lead you right through that storm and other days it means that He loves you so deeply that the sunrises and sunsets bleed colors.

something good.



  1. oh Cally. i want to write this down and put it up on my wall. it all resonates in my bones, in who i am, or i should say who i've come to be on the other side of fire and storms. that quote is great - 'don't leave as you were.' what's that from? your mention of sunsets makes me miss is so dreary here. but they will come. they always do. also that song is beautiful!

    1. HEY WEEPING OVER YOUR LOVELINESS FOR A SECOND HERE. x amen amen. one of my friend's father said it and i was snapping for a couple days cuz it was so good. THEY DO. keep those eyes on the sky, looking for any trace. they're hidden sometimes. x

  2. This is a beautiful reminder, Cally. Many times I feel broken, and it's hard to remember that God created us to be incandescent. It's very important to remember.

    Thank you for letting me remember.

    xoxo Morning
    Ups & Downs

    1. RIGHTTTTO. God works in our hearts yo. When we have the humility to give it all up, He takes it. so good.

  3. Keep reminding me, Cally girl. Keep reminding me. I keep forgetting, even though in my bones I know the truth.

    I'll come to my senses.

    1. Hey. I know. And I love you even when your heart can't seem to keep that truth locked in there. x

  4. if you make a book of all your poetry i'll buy 100000000 copies of it and stick them on my bookshelf and read one every morning. Your words are beautiful and give hope to the soul <3

    I forget this all too often. God is good. Yes, He is. He's good even when it doesn't seem like it...even when...I'm not good. (Which is pretty much all the time ha.) Why is He so good to me? I don't deserve it. OUCH love is sacrifice. God is good <3

    my heart is overflowing now ♥

    1. AUTUMMMMMMMMN MY HEART AH. YOU GET IT, YOU GET IT. can i shout that forever? yikes. he is so good and i weep looking at the cross because i am everything but. i am not good. you are not good. but He Is. He is enough and gracious and lovely and altogether WONDERFUL. oh man.
      love is sacrifice. you got it.

      also i am crying laughing at your compliments. i'll give you as many copies as you want if you become my personal chef yo. *falls over*

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    1. is that written on our hearts because i think it is. screamin. x HE IS GOOD.

  6. hey hey hey I believe it too, I really do.

    it's a little smudged but better than before ( or something like that..? )
    I really like that.

    1. had to appreciate who you were for about 52392 seconds. man.
      keep believing.

      so many happy tears.
      thank you. xxx


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