Thursday, May 25, 2017

core to my lips







i sat in the passenger seat, and his hands held the steering wheel as we drove across hot pavement. i leaned my head against the back of the seat, and my heart grew words i couldn't understand until now. she is loved. the tall girl. the one who is braver than me, and pours out her heart into others even when she feels she can't (i laugh because it's all Him).

the city flies by, and the car is loud, but my thoughts are soft and still. i love them. the blonde boy who doesn't talk because he doesn't like his lisp. the curly haired boy who grew up and switched to contacts. the older brother who finally learned how to love others. the boy who wears hats because he's embarrassed when his hair isn't styled. the girl who is so brave, and runs into war with hands full of light. the girl who loves when no one is looking.

tonight i sat in the driver's seat, and lightning flashed as the rain started to pour. i leaned my head against the back of the seat, and stopped at the red light. a song was playing in my heart, but i could never understand the words. i sink beneath the weight of love because i can't get it from my core to my lips.

but He appeared beside me, so gently that i barely noticed it. the clouds broke for a minute, and the golden light was shining on the wet ground. no one else saw. let freedom rise. 

it was something like that. the song, i mean. the one that is written into the curves of my ribs, that aches when i miss you. His mighty hands carved those words in there, and it is a song that is so sorrowful, but so mighty that even the sky trembles when it is sung.

i love you. those words taste like summer on my lips (wild strawberries and peach juice and afternoon naps), but they come out a little too shaky and quiet. i am a heart-girl, and the i can't get my mouth to tell you what i mean. but it is there, full and honest, if you care to pick up the scattered pieces (i'm a bit clumsy sometimes).

/x
search my heart
p.s. i'll catch up on your blogs after my trip this weekend. loves. 

17 comments:

  1. This was beautiful. I absolutely loved this -- it was so true. And it was so touching and heart-wrenching....*siiigh*

    This was magnificent,
    Amelia xxx
    <3

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    1. mannnn. thank YOU. efalal. so many loves. x

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  2. I've been missing your poetry (can't wait to hear from you after your trip).

    xoxo Abigail Lennah
    ups & downs

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    1. cryyy. mah heart. loves. i'm home, and it is loud and harsh, but good. x full of heart aches.

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  3. I love this so much it aches. Oh my goodness. This has got to be my favorite thing you've written.
    I'm a heart-girl too. I sometimes wonder if someday it will all just "overflow" . . . .
    Anyhoo, loved this. <3 <3

    Sophy

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    1. maaan. that is a precious compliment, sophy girl. favorite? man man. laughies. love ya. x

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  4. I love this so, so much. And not just because I think I'm in it. ;-) I love you, girl. I miss you. There aren't any more words, but I know you know I mean them.

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    1. HAHA YEP THAT'S YOU. how did u knoooo. laughsss. I MISS YOU. AND I LOVE YOU. AND oh boy it hurts. i wish i was better at saying all those things when i'm with you. x see you soon? two and 1/2 weeks.

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    2. I was tipped off by the tallness I guess. XD The other stuff was news to me and I'm sure it's not true (at least the brave part...I'm beginning to believe I'm loved), but I thank you for it anyway. :-) SEE YOU SOON!

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  5. THIS<3 SO LOVELY. OGISNDIFALFJLJDSL

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  6. oh Cally. you know i read this days ago. but as always, how to form words to say how stunning it is??! how it touched me?! you blow me away every time, love. it's crazy, i drove in the rain the very day you posted this. the tall, brave, loved girl - i know one too. and you got it. love so strong there aren't words to bring it out of our hearts. but we keep trying. also, that song is amazing. you got me listening to more of them! and your pictures - they go together so flawlessly and are so peaceful.

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    1. oh baby. you're killing me with all these gracious words. poop. GOD IS SO GOOD. and i'm laughing because we both know it, and He is giving it and giving it. x ugh. love u so much.

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  7. um kfjlksdfjksdlfkjdslk dunno what to say but your words always fill me up YOU GET ME SO GOOD. GOD IS SO GOOD.

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    1. idek baby because it's all God and you know it and i know it and we're under a waterfall of goodness. whaaaat. HAHAHA. x love u.

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  8. This was just...it shook me. "I'm a heart-girl". So real and raw and true, and I can relate, and I love it, and you inspire me with your words.

    -T. x

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    1. we r the most shook. HAHAH.
      I love you, and I love all of your comments, sweet Tane. come by more often? thanks for all the love. x

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