Tuesday, April 18, 2017

2017 GIVEAWAY



HAHAHA. the giveawaaaayyy has ENDED. all that hard work yo (just kidding. put the post up, enjoyed all the answers you peaches put in, and ate some chocolate). 

dun dun duuuuun. *drumroll* THE WINNER OF THE 2017 GIVEAWAY HOSTED BY THIS RAD BEAN AND MYSELF IS...

wait for it. 

BECCA WHITLOCK.


so much laughter. i enjoyed this giveaway more than you know. thanks for all the wonderful answers, for leaving those sweet comments on my posts, and for following me even when it doesn't include brownies sent to your door (maybe in 20 years, i could work that into my blog??? just kidding. but seriously HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE). 

love love love.
x

you guys gave me songs for the giveaway, so here is mine in return:


p.s. jk jk here's the real one: loves

Thursday, April 6, 2017

it's okay / MORNING





i smooth out the tired dreams in my blanket, yawning as my blood starts to flow quicker. i have softer dreams than most people. i dreamed about this boy of happiness and curly hair. he gingerly picked up the guitar. i wasn't expecting much. but he played this song, and his fingers flew across the frets, and i was laughing so hard that you could hear my laughter from a block away.

i want to tell you that he's the same kid, that bravery blush on his cheeks, but i cannot. some part of him grew up and gave up, and there's a piece missing.

but that's okay.
i know that might sound a bit silly to you. what part of that sounds okay? but it was a day in the middle of winter, and i stared into his eyes, and something deep in my heart clicked into place. He is loved. 

so i brush the night out of my hair, and i wash forgotten memories from my face, and stare out the window with a crooked grin. let me walk in the hope and the love of Christ, selflessness left in every footstep.
no dwelling on the past.

/x

lolz this is a little short, but that's okay. words have been walking in molasses so I'm having trouble getting them out. 

p.s. the giveaway is still up! enter enter enter. there are good things there.