Sunday, October 20, 2019

see the way





see the way, see the way

it all just. fits right into the palm
of the earth
the way the your name is tucked like a caramel in the back of my cheek
as i idle in traffic with the window

down.

i turn the radio up,
trying to drown thoughts about you
again. again
i am tired of the way it's a never-ending
record. as if i haven't
thought about you every day enough already,
this repetition is - getting to, getting to my head.

just a reminder that you're still gone.

i've had the same songs on repeat
since the day that you left.
i remember driving home in the hot afternoon sun - 
a day just like today -
crying my eyes out. ( not surprising at all, i do it all the time ) 

five more minutes.
if i could take it back to the bar, when i was
standing outside with you on the other side of the line
\i was looking at the stars but you were the only thing on my mind-
sorry, i don't mean to be so cheesy, but,
i would have stood there forever, tracing the cracks in the sidewalk
with my feet, shivering on the edge of a goodbye.
if i could take it back---

the radio isn't helping me 
forget about you, not even for a split second-
oh, i wouldn't forget about you for a split second.
no, sorry, stop -
i really miss you. that's it. 

/x