Sunday, January 1, 2017

in your eyes




it was the stillness in your eyes.

the hushed peace, lingering there. telling me i came back home.

it was funny, though. because there had been so much on my hands, on my heart. the bitterness sinks in and your eyes turn gray and no one knows who you are anymore. not even yourself.

it chokes you.

but one look at you and i knew everything was going to be okay.

you knew. i looked in your eyes and it was like looking right back into mine. glory stuck in the iris, gleaming goodness.
(He is good.)

how could i even put it all into words? He had to take it all. every last piece. it broke you. it broke me.

i laugh because it hurt so much. and i thought i'd never make it out, but here i am.

things change. things grow.

you know.

i can see it in the stillness in your eyes.

/x

21 comments:

  1. i followed as a hidden person accidentally and now i'm laughing really hard.
    here i am.
    good to be home.
    xxx

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    1. laughing because i knew you did but i couldn't figure out if you did it by accident or not.
      hey. let's bake up some cookies. you know how it goes. you cook, i clean.
      home. it sounds just right.

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  2. ugh ugh ugh. you're so good. i can't wait to continue with your journey on this blog...2017 is gonna be awesome.

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    1. ugh ugh ugh yoU'RE MY PEACH. i am so stinking glad you're coming with me on this journey. let's get 'em. xx

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  3. yyyyyyyyyessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

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  4. That was a really nice poem! It actually reminds me of something I'm writing :)

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    1. WOOO. thanks a billion, Marrok! that is so exciting. i call first dibs to read whatever that piece is. x

      p.s. thanks for taking the survey! i absolutely loved getting to know more about YOU. i also took a look at your blog and liked the setup. i'm not too interested in gaming and comics & movie reviews so i didn't follow, but you made me laugh a lot. i love your sense of humor and how enjoyable you are in general. keep fighting on, fellow Soldier! our King is set before us. xx

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    2. Hahah it will take some time before it's ready for anyone to read but thanks for that!

      No problem it was a fun survey to fill out!

      Thanks! Just one thing I don't do game reviews lol, I just watched the assassin's creed movie, but I don't just review things. Am glad you found it funny! it always makes me happy to know I made at lest one person laugh :D

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  5. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee here we go *dances about excitedly*

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    1. I KNOWWWW. I AM SO READY. too bad i don't have any actual plans for the future of this lolz whoops. x

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  6. This is just so perfect wow. SUPER PUMPED FOR THIS BLOG!

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    1. ur so perfect wow. #laughingatmyselfwhoops CAN'T WAIT EITHER. WEEEE. x

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  7. <3 <3 <3
    this hits me in just the perfect spot of my heart and now I'm so content and warm and fuzzy and your poetry makes me feel like fresh apple pie

    ^I feel like I always comment the same thing, so there's me trying to be different.

    I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ALL YOUR NEW STUFF ON THIS BLOG!

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    1. elizabeth these are tears on my face from your comment do you see them. OW. that is just so good. oh man.
      thank you. x i'm so glad you're here.

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  8. OHEMGOSH
    THIS LIGHT
    THIS SPACE
    THOSE WORDS
    THE PHOTOS
    those little weed/grass thingys by the barbed wire. oh yea.
    stoked for new beginnings like this.
    i'm here. i'm excited. you're here. you're great.
    lets do this.

    Randy Abby
    WAKE ME UP Blog

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    1. DIES LAUGHING.
      oh i needed you and i didn't even know it.
      thanks for loving and being as excited as i am. things like that makes my heart glow.
      yikes. let's do this.

      ON WE GO.

      xx

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  9. *cries* Cally i literally have run out of ways to say how gorgeous your words are. i feel this so much, the bitterness, the hurt, the wondering if we'll ever make it out, but then things change and grow and here we are, better. so excited for brin lael! and wow those pictures - i can almost feel the wind in the first one and i love the contrast of the harsh wires and the lovely little orange light bubbles in the second, and in the third the grass literally GLOWS! (also your profile picture is very adorable)

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    1. OKAY OKAY LET'S SLOW DOWN HERE A SECOND. wowie. andrea. you are absolutely precious and such a dear friend and i really wanted you to know that because WOW. GOD IS SO GOOD. and i just pray that it fills your soul and you seek Him truly. yikes. x

      secondly. hahaaaa. oh goodness. yes yes yes. it hurts and there was this quote that was like...i look and i all see are shadows. so i turn my face to the cross and see my Savior. or something like that. BUT I SCREAMED. BECAUSE IT WAS SO TRUE. turn our faces from the shadows and look into His. wowwwwiee.

      ahwhawwfha I HAVE A LOT TO SAY SORRY WHOOPS. but oh yes. things change and grow. you got it. AND I AM SO EXCITED THAT YOU'RE EXCITED.

      wwooOOO. thank you. i absolutely loved those pictures and it just warms my heart that you really looked. because it's so easy for people to just glance, read, and comment but then move on. so HEY. it means a lot that you take the time to care. oh. loves loves.

      (p.s. thank you. HAPPY TEARS.)

      xxx

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  10. So I just followed your blog a few days ago and I have to say I keep coming back to continue reading old posts and rereading just wow your words are so amazing and heartfelt and gorgeous it's truly inspiring. Thank you for these they're really warming my heart <3

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    1. oh my goodness. let me wipe these tears from my eyes real quick. this is a precious note. i'll keep it in the pocket of my heart and laugh until the sun rises again. x thank you beyond words. WEEP.

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